愛沒走,

Studying & studying. Never thought I'll be understanding Accounting. So now I actually believe that listening in class & being punctual for lessons does helps abit. So now, I'll TRY to be punctual. It is a difficult task for me.

Apparantly it's already 4.32am in the morning. I shouldn't be here since I'm having morning lessons tomorrow at 9am. But I had a nice long gossip session with my babygirl just now over at her place. I swear it was a long session, hehehe.

Life so far so good. Likea roller coaster ride. I've people treating me really nice & I honestly do not think I deserve such treatment. Nah.. You guys are nice people, but I know myself best :) I'm not greedy, I only want 1 person to treat me nice. Just him would be enough for me. And sometimes I feel like I need to let go of myself to enjoy life as it is. I feel so tied down by so many things, major turn off. I wanna throw all the troubles away & live life freely like a little kid. I wanna cry over things & get over it within 5 minutes just because I got a new toy or sweets. I wanna remain young forever. Nah, I'm always young at heart.

///// Random entry. Time for bed with my fluffies.

Highest & lowest.

Today was suppose to be my happiest day after having talks with you in the noon. I thought we both were back to how we talked in the past, we talked about everything. It seems like there was nothing to hide in between us. Little did I expect things to go wrong in the night. I've never meant that way, not the way you're thinking.

I don't need your heartless & hurtful words. You never know how much it hurts when I tried to maintain calm while listening. Indeed, heartwrenching love. I've nv expect anything from you in return for everything that I've did for you. If I really do, I wouldn't be still sticking around you now.

I've never expected a status from you now & the next few years. I just hoped we could remain this way and I'm happy enough. I've nv pressured you for anything. I've no rights to care and bother about you, totally no rights. But I can't help it. I tried my best to hold on. I really did. But why is it that in your eyes, i'm not? Why do you think that I'm doing things on purpose, with a motive? Why?

Ojw, nothing will change for me. Maybe one day you'll leave for good, but I promise that I'll still be waiting like how I am now. Actions will prove.

I'm not gonna put in all my effort for a next relationship. All I got back from my last relationship were shits. I wouldn't wanna condemn all guys.. Sad but true, it was all dissapointment.

I know I've repeated countless times. But given a change to go back to the past, I wouldn't choose to not start my 1st relationship. I'll choose to treat you better when we're together for the first time. I'll choose not to let you go, if not you wouldn't be like how you're now. Not putting in effort to relationship. I'm sorry, but I'm sure this is what I've brought upon myself. Nobody's to blame.

I'm not sensitive. I'm just too afraid to lose you. Serious.

2012

I wonder how many still read this little space of mine. My readers are all gone? Please come back okay, I promise to blog regularly. So, a brand new year. Hopefully it'll be a better one, & a smooth year for me.

Have been busy with school stuff lately. Class chalet, work, school projects & Chinese new year stuff. I've cut my fringe, somehow looks like bangs. I am not used to it, & I don't think it suits me anymore. My face look so damn chubby now.

This is one of my favorite girl in school. Full of gossips & nonsense. Studied with her for the previous term paper. I seriously think that we can't study together. Cause we ended up using three-quarter of the time to talk.

When we were busy doing project stuff at Hobin's place. From the photo you can see clearly, all Apple supporter -.-